All of these questions with no suitable answer. Even thinking about what the answer “could be” was overwhelming in itself. I must admit, all of these questions kept me from actually moving. I stayed in the safe haven of the same spot because of fear. Yes I participated in life’s events, but I just remained in THAT realm. As long as I didn’t have any BIG responsibility to fail I did it. If I could hide behind the curtain and take a bow where no one could see me, I did it. Also, if I could participate in a group without having to put myself out there ALONE, I did it.

Unfortunately, also parallel with my comfort zone was depression, mediocrity, and blandness. Nothing really jolted my excitement. I felt like ER from whinny the pooh. I walked around in monotony, while my soul screamed for something greater. Could this be life? Could life actually be THIS BORING? If so, why are there people claiming their “living their best life” and really pursuing their dreams? Could some of these accusations actually be true?

......Just take some time and really think about it.

I honestly didn't believe that EVERYONE was lying.

I was curious to find out if this was true. I sought to converse with someone more tangible. Someone who had just as much “courage” to live a purposeful life that I could actually talk to. That’s when I ran into a guy named Christian Johnson. Christian served for the US Army National Guard at the age of 17 and was sent to Afghanistan in support of Operations Enduring Freedom. His passion for life helped him push the boundaries as he took many monumental steps into creating positive change, including starting his own entertainment company called “Creative Vibes Industries LLC.” He was also so moved by issues in the community that it urged him to become the Director of “Serving with a Badge.” His vision is “to provide an open source model for communities nationwide to build police and community trust through problem solving collaborations that address public safety and crime reduction.” This helped bridge the gap between the community and armed badged officials. It’s extremely difficult to fight for the rights and safety of a community that already had a bad stigma against the Armed forces. Yet he still pushed forward. He created “ The Porch Light Project” that helped light over 3,000 houses of those underprivileged in the St.Louis Community. Every Monday he also gets more connected with the community and serves the homeless along with other volunteers.

Listening to his story was like a dose of encouragement. How could one person accomplish so much for himself and unselfishly be a hero to his community. Maybe he was born with it, I guess. As I was talking with him I couldn’t help but ask.

“So what helps you do all of this? I know you were afraid?’” Waiting to hear some clique statement about how you just have to do it.


(Special condolences to Christian Johnson and his family for the recent passing of his sister)

There is no illusion greater than fear -Lao Tzu

Your fear seems to hide deep inside your mind - Irene Cara

Courage doesn't mean you don't get afraid. Courage means you don't let fear stop you - Bethany Hamilton

Everything you want is on the other side of fear - George Addair

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and a sound mind. 2 Timothy1:7